I Did A Bike Ride This Evening

Not a long ride, only 12 miles-6 miles out, 6 miles back. But I purposely chose a route that had ugly tough hills to climb on the way back. It hurt. I had tears streaming down my face climbing those hills. I wanted it to hurt because I needed to cry. We had to say goodbye today to Haden, and I hate cancer so much!

He’s had so many good days since my last post. Wonderful days! Yesterday was a meh day, but we didn’t worry. Fighting cancer is hard work, and every day can’t be grand. Today started out as another meh day, but he nosedived after lunch. Complete nosedive. There was zero doubt it was time. Just like that. Last night, he was happily sniffing around the grill, hoping to catch the mouse he was positive lived there. Today he had to be carried into the vet’s office because he couldn’t walk in. His passing was peaceful and easy; he was gone in less than a minute. I’ve always believed it’s a gift we give our pups when we help them cross over, but man, it hurts like nobody’s business!

Such a sweet pup he was. The impression he made on my and Jamie’s hearts in the short 5.5 weeks he was here will last a lifetime. We were just head-over-heels in love with him. It was such an honor and a privilege and a pleasure and a blessing to have him here. And we miss him already. I miss him. He was a part of our family.

Rest easy and run free, little Haden. You are healed, as I knew you would be.